hello! its been quite a while, 6 months actually! i've been struggling against motivation to maintain personal projects because work has been eating up all of my energy and life beyond the 8am-5pm schedule, but i'm still here and alive and whatever, so that's good at least. not much has changed other than my growing disdain and desire for better things in my life, but i'm gettin through it!

in other news, i'm trying to keep myself busy with personal projects, i've picked up another bit of gamedev and maybe i'll make a new page to track things and to keep a log for progress... that'd be a good idea! maybe i'll do that this weekend so i can have something to do on the weekends programming-wise.

i'm also looking into getting into some professional development courses like some tech certifications which I think could be a good use of my time and help me move beyond my current work-life balance which, even though I work an 8-5 5 days/week, is very imbalanced as I have very little time and energy for myself and for my own growth is stifled due to the lack of direction, development, and long-term prospects of my current position, but that's okay, i'm always browsing and looking to the future for opportunities!

anyways, thanks for checking in, hopefully more soon!

hi i've just been real busy with work and stuff, but its been goin okay uwu, i finished up what i can on that big work project and it actually passed snuff with the higher ups at work, the only downside is that a change introduced by some other people were interfering!!! but that's beyond me and i don't gotta deal with it anymore since i actually got the main thing workin yippee!!!!! so now im workin on a bunch of other stuff that piled up for the month and a half that i was workin on that one project, which is a fair bit but it seems to be rather small stuff.

just haven't had the time or brainspace to look at programming stuff outside of work, but i didn't forget forever! that's what counts uwu
i don't have work on halloween so i'm excited to do nothing all weekend and maybe get a lil drunk or whatever hehe okay that's all goodbye goodnight i love you

hi don't mind this i just had an impulse thought and i really wanted to test it

So it's been a while since I've done stuff with this site! I've been real busy moving in early 2025 and have been settling. I think it could be better, but I can't complain too much (but I will anyways). It's a bit of a culture shock moving from California to Missouri, and mostly in a bad way. But! Good news! I'm employed! I have a nice cushy office job as a programmer and I'm enjoying it. It uses my degree pretty well so I feel satisfied in that. I'm still living with my folks which isn't ideal for my mental health, but its very ideal for my wallet! So that's okay and I can live with it for now. I've procrastinated on updating this page for quite a while just because I've been struggling with the concept of

Why should I program for free when I could program for money???

and I couldn't really argue against that so I've been stalling pretty hard. But this is progress! I might actually start documenting some things here to let me have some sort of chronology of myself and my website, which I think would be pretty cool. Maybe weekly. Maybe less. Maybe more! I'll do my best to remember to do it as often as I feel is good.